a tag before i go hiatus.

miss B commented in my last entry saying that i had been tagged in her blog. thank god she did that, because i couldn't really think of what to write right now. just finished my course(s) and next week i'll sit for my FINAL EXAM!!! really need to ace that.. have to! so, after this tag is done, i might go hiatus for a week or so. just so that i could concentrate on my revision. ececececececece.. *rotflol*

1. When is the last time you ran?
-loooooooong ago?!! *lol*
2. Do your jeans have rips, tears and holes in them?
-awww..sexy! no lah.
3. What are you dreading right now?
-the fact that my final exam's next week, and i have tonnes of my students' exam papers to mark. dang!
4. Do you celebrate 4/20?
-erkk..that's one of my best friends' birthday..anything special that day?!
5. When is the last time you saw your significant other?
-have to LOOK for one first, before i get to SEE him.
6. Do you get the full eight hours of sleep every night?
-not every night.lately, i got only 3-4 hours of sleep. :(
7. What is your favourite current song?
-been listening to LOTSSSSSSS of korean songs. too many favourites, i must say.
8. If anyone came to your house on your lazy days, what would you do?
-if they are not my guest (i.e. my parents'), i'd lock myself in my room and take a nap. ;)
9. Who last grabbed your ass?
-*rotflol* no one, thank god.
10. Have you ever been in your school’s band?
-proudly to say, yes.
11. Do you own a pair of Converse?
-no, don't plan to.
12. Did you copy and paste this survey?
-yup, from no ordinary momster. :)
13. Do you eat raw cookie dough?
-nope. not my thing..
14. Have you ever kicked a vending machine?
-when i was in high school, yes. hoping to get another can of coffee. *lol*
15. Do you hate it when a radio ruins a song by playing a slow one after it?
-i hate it when people remix a good song, and make it worse.
16. Do you watch Trading Places?
-once, i think..
17. Have you ever stayed on line a long time waiting for someone?
-ha ha ha. i have. loooooooong time ago..
18. Are you ‘cocky’?
-i think not. but people might see me differently. who knows?
19. Could you live without a computer?
-in this day and age, i think i can't.
20. Do you wear your shoes in the house?
-when i get a new pair of shoes.. i'd walk around the house with them. hehehe..
21. At what age did you find out Santa was not real?
-since forever!
22. How many phones, house phones and cell phones are there in your home?
-1 house phone, 3 cells
23. What do you do when you are sad?
-cry, listen to songs, talk to my best friend.
24. Who would you call first if you won the lottery?
-the same best friend. but of course it's impossible. HARAM ok, the lottery?! *lol*
25. Last time you saw your best friend(s)?
-the one mentioned above, not for a long time. others, i saw them last Eid. :D
26. Who, or What sleeps with you?
-have yet to fine a hubby to sleep with, so now i only sleep with 4 pillows. pathetic, tak?! :(
27. Are you still in High School?
-i wish i am!!!
28. Is anyone on your bad side now?
-alhamdulillah, none that i could think of now.
29. What jewelery are you wearing now?
-a ring, a gold bracelet, D&G watch.
30. What is the first thing that you do when you get on line?
-check my gmail. log on to yahoo messenger.
31. Do you watch Grey’s Anatomy?
-not religiously, but enough to make me drool over Dr Alex Karev. ;)
32. Would you ever wear a boy/girlfriends clothes?
-i find this very romantic. why not? [yikesss!!so cheeky!] *rotflol*
33. Where do you work?
-in a school, in terengganu.
34. What are you doing on Friday?
-study, prepare sandwiches for my students [they are having their scouts' annual camping]
35. Is Justin Timberlake becoming the next Michael Jackson?
-hope not!
36. Favourite name for a girl?
-fatimah naquiyah, hannah humaira.. my nieces' names.
37. Favourite name for a boy?
-hasif hilman, haziq husaini, hassan an nuqman, muaz .. these are all my nephews' names.
38. Will you keep your own name when you get married?
-of course. i am muslim.
39. When is the last time you left your house?
-this morning.
40. Do you return your cart (I assume trolley)?
-sometimes i just left it beside my car. hehe
41. Do you have a dishwasher?
-no.
42. What noise do you hear?
-school bell ringing, rain drops.. aaahhhh.. i like the sound of rain drops..

i'm tagging achik, asni, shambie, shaxu and anyone interested.

of being single and young(er).

is it a sin being a single? did i bring any harm to anyone just because i have not settled down? why do i get treated badly just because i'm not married? i've had enough of these sort of double standards already. since working, approximately 4 years ago, being single is like a death sentence to me (and a few friends). i have to attend courses that those who are married did not want to go, simply because they had problems with 'anak²'. and i have to go to meetings because those same people can't make it due to family problem and i have nothing to think about at home. my god!!!! don't us, single people, have our own problems too? it may not be about children or husband or in-laws, but a problem is a problem no matter how you put it. no one is to judge how great or simple a problem is if you're not the one facing it.

me being single is not a choice. this is what we i like to call fate. if i can just pick anyone to be wed, i would have done it years ago! who does not want to be married and start a family? everybody does. it's just that my 'time' is yet to arrive. and for that, i have to be 'punished' by doing stuff that mostly, are supposed to be done together as colleagues. i am trying my best to settle down, to have my own child(ren) et cetera. maybe i should try harder. but in the mean time, cant' they just give me a break, or better yet, treat me equally?

and is it my fault being born late? and start working when i'm only in my early 20s? me being young [if not the youngest..], is that a ticket for anyone not to show some respect to me? in this day and age, i believe in equality. in order to be respected by everyone, you have to respect others too. i have done my part, the best that i can [i.e respecting my superiors], but why can't they show me some respect too? when they give orders, can't they talk in a softer tone? and show some nice facial expression once in a while.. is that so hard to do? a simple and honest gesture means a lot to anyone.

i know we can't stay young forever. i am already 25 (ouch!!), and that's not young anymore. but being the junior in my workplace, plus a single one too, i don't think i get respected for being me. i maybe younger, but i work like everyone too. so don't i deserve a little bit of respect? can't older people respect their juniors?

these are some of the reasons why i really want to fly away from my workplace. even though it's the best compared to my friends', but i'm afraid i can't handle this kind of pressure anymore. i am, intentionally or not, being DISCRIMINATED just because i am (still) single and young(er).

or, to ease my pain, shall i just find a husband right away?
rotflol.