Help!

Assalamualaykum..
During my lunch break yesterday [at the course], I checked my email and was a bit shocked to read a forwarded message from my TKC OGA.The message entitled "A brother is lost" caught my eyes and I went on reading it.
One of our OGs brother was missing since the mid of July and the family was dissappointed as the police had done almost nothing to find him.

He is 26 and mentally disabled, but that doesn't mean anyone should take this missing case very lightly.
According to Kak Leng (tkc8993) [who forwarded the message from the sister], the police even said that since the missing person is already 26, they did not prioritize the case.
Dang! Anyways, there was an article that came out in The Star last Friday.
You can read it here.


And this is the email from his sister Kak Mie (tkc8993) forwarded by Kak Leng:

Salam,
Hi all.
I know this is about to become like me airing my dirty laundry for the world to know, but I feel so desperate.I need to tell this to you girls.My brother Salhi has been ill with a psychiatric illness.Schizophrenia to be precise. He is 26 and he started having mental disturbance at 17 when he was in MCKK lagi.He was the genious of the family, the badut of the family and the best little brother anyone could ever wish for.
Past 10 years saw him deteriorating and my heart sgt sgt sebak when this time, I went to the hospital in KB to find him locked up in a cage, together with people I would not even look at, bcos they scare me. He had extra muscular twitches and gaunt facial expression. Memang tak nampak mcm my used to be little brother anymore. In between bites of coney dog ( dia suka A&W) he managed to tell me 'Nak sekolah balik Kak Mie please '. Repeatedly. I just held back tears.
We took him out, and he was stable during my wedding. Masa reception I kept him occupied with a camera so people don't feel obliged to make a petty talk with a 'weird' looking man. Everything was fine. On Friday the 13th, he left home saying he wanted to go for a walk. RM 3.50 in his pocket. He never came back. Duit tak ada, IC tak ada. We looked for him everywhere, satu Kelantan. No news.
He hasn't taken his medications for 2 weeks now, I tak tahulah how he is now.Mungkin kalau you all jalan2 kat KL nampak budak gila (I have to accept this now) talking to himself, kotor, kurus tak terurus, kejap cakap english kejap cakap kelantan, that's him. Let me know. What I fear is that he got hit by a lorry ke, in a ditch somewhere waiting to be found. I am writing almost with tears all the time. Partly because I am frustrated there wasn't much time for me in Malaysia, to do anything. Police report has been filed and my other brother has written in the Star.
Now this waiting game is making me very apprehensive.Usually he'll find means to go back to Kuala Kangsar. 2 kali he was found in MCKK in the past. His memory seemed to have stopped at that point in hislife. Allah sahajalah yang tahu why he is tested this far. To him he is still 17.
Doakan so he's looked after by people yang he come across, who would find sympathy in them to give him food and a place to shut his eyes. Insy. Amiin. And I am sorry if anybody finds this upsetting.

Love, Najmiah

Dr. Najmiah K Ahmad
Clinical Fellow in Anaesthetics
York District General.

Second message:

I go through a cycle of optimism and pessimism. Looking at how he was found last time after 4 days missing , by the roadside, cengkung and dishevelled, makan tak minum tak tidur tak, I just hope he's still alive.On the cause of his illness, I am not the best to outline the cause, but what i know is always complained about being bullied in MCKK. To what extent we didn't know because at the time it's our fault we thought he was'just saying it'.So nobody paid attention to his complaints.
After getting some prize money for his 8As PMR from a Japanese Minister he ran away from school but not to home, but to KL. When we found him he said he couldn't stand school. Nak balik rumah takut my dad marah. My dad took him out of school and he went to a school in Kelantan. Towards his SPM he was getting worse but managed 2A1 - Physics and Add Maths.
Already on tablet he joined the flying school, he was always fascinated by airplanes, always wanted to be a pilot. Half a year he was there (Kedah I think) they found his tablets and he was expelled. He took a turn for the worse.When he got slightly better I got him enrolled in a private college. He received a best student award when he was on this medication tradename Domatil. Somehow the tablet was stopped ( pricey I think) and he was on Risperidone ( for those medics who are interested) , he is never stable since and he couldn't sit his exams.
To what extent was he bullied? Was it very bad that he couldn't tell anyone? Sexually? Or was he already 'crazy' so people bullied him? Chicken ke egg ke. I reserve my comments for now on boarding schools.
May he returns safe.
Amiin.

Wallahualam.. I do hope somebody can offer some help.And if there's any MCKK OBs reading this, I also hope that you can spread this news.He was an Old Boy regardless he was only there until form 3.
Wassalam~

Course!

Assalamualaykum..

Thanks for the visits these past few days, people..
Lately I'm busy with my kids' exam.. [UPSR trials to be exact..]
Hence no posts/entries from moi since the last one.. :)
InsyaAllah I'll be updating my blog a.s.a.p.
And am having a one-day course at the moment..

And err... pa'chik... everything's ok.
:)

Wassalam.

Him.

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Wishin' and Hopin' by Ani DiFranco

Wishing and hoping
And thinking and praying
Planning and dreaming
Each night of his charms
That won’t get you into his arms

So if you’re looking
To find love that you can share
All you gotta do is
Hold him and kiss him and love him
And show him that you care

Show him that you care just for him
Do the things that he likes to do
Wear your hair just for him
Cause you won’t get him
Thinking and praying,
Wishing and hoping
Just

Wishing and hoping and
Thinking and praying
Planning and dreaming
His kisses will start
That won’t get you into his heart

So if you’re thinking
Of how great true love is
All you gotta do is
Hold him, and kiss him
And squeeze him and love him
Just do it
And after you do
You will be his

Show him that you care
And just for him
Do the things that he likes to do
Wear your hair just for him
Cause you won’t get him
Thinking and praying
Wishing and hoping just

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Assalamualaykum..

Was just enjoying the pictures in Asni's blog when this song came into mind.
So happen, Idya posted the same song [minus the audio, just the lyric] in her blog not so long ago.
I guess this song is one of tkc9600 all-time favourite songs.
Not only the melody is good, the lyric is somewhat so catchy. :)
Talk about unrequited love.. Sigh~

And a few days back I was on the phone with Mlle. Shaxu.
She was really surprised actually to know that I still have feelings for him. LOL.
Dear,I didn't tell you all this while because you guys have been really close.
And another fact is that I know it's never gonna happen anyway.
I'm not hoping.. at least not anymore~

Hence, this song is just to ease my mood.
Am feeling rather 'romantic' upon seeing Asni+Asib's pictures in Langkawi. :D
[this song is dedicated to both of you.. so when's the baby coming?? hahahaha.. I can't wait!]

I hope it ends here. And by 'it' I meant the longing for him.
Scold me or whatever you want, but being me, I just can't find the courage to walk up to him and say I like him.

Wassalam~

Truth.

Assalamualaykum..

This morning as I was blog hopping, I was intrigued by Dr Am's [a.k.a So'od] entry on 8 Random Things About Himself.
Not that they are very weird or anything, but when people that I don't know [in person] write about themselves that made me feel as if I've known them for ages.
Blogging has given me another colorful and interesting circle of friends, virtual ones.
Reading their everyday lives' activities somehow made me feel close to some of them if not all.

At first, I was so tempted to do the same thing as Dr Am did, but as I was just thinking of what to write, a colleague told me about an online test for me to answer.
I don't really believe this kinda stuff actually, but since it's about interpreting myself so I thought, why don't I just give it a shot.
So there I was, sitting leisurely after class and Googling for Dr Phil's Test.
And then I answered all 10 questions.
The result was as follow:

_______________________________

Your total score is 37

Interpretation of Results
Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

_______________________________

I'm not sure of what others [friends or family or anyone] think about me, but the rest are all nothing but the truth about myself.
It's shocking even for yours truly to read such definite interpretation, but I guess Dr Phil must've got something in his brain to come up with this kind of personality test.

Yuppp, I don't make friends too quickly or easily, but once I did, it's for life insyaAllah.
Regarding trust, I admit the whole truth had been interpreted and well stated there.
Maybe it's my bad because I trust people who I consider a friend easily but once that trust is broken, there goes everything.
It takes me a longer time to forget everything.
(read here.. [being cheated by your own friend who you consider like your own lil' sister hurts.])

But I guess Dr Phil left out one thing in the interpretation.

When I'm mad at someone, I avoid him/her.
I just can't confront somebody who I'm angry at.
At least not for some time..

Hehehehe.. we are after all, humans..
And as humans, nobody is perfect.

Wassalam.

p/s: Have a safe journey, Dr Am.. InsyaAllah if time permits I'll have my own vacation too next week. :)

Aboon~

Assalamualaykum..

On July 15th, she flew to Sydney for her Masters.
I was a bit disappointed because I didn't get to talk to her right before she boarded her plane.
But Alhamdulillah, knowing that she wasn't by herself [Asni+Asib managed to send her off], I felt a bit relieved.

Babe..you take care okay?
Thank God we had our little 'date' with Shambie on the 14th.
That day I was not feeling that sad, it was only for a year, I kept telling myself that.
But when we said our last goodbyes then it hit me hard.

I won't be able to talk to you anytime I want anymore..
We won't be able to exchange stories about our 'crushes' like we always do.
No more hanging out during weekends when you came home.
And most importantly, Eid this year won't be the same without you, Aboon.

Wassalam.

p/s: I'm happy for you for that 'ring'! ehemmmmmm~

Sigh~

Assalamualaykum..

I think my life is so disorganized right now.
I've got a pile of work that needs to be done a.s.a.p.
Reports, worksheets, timetables..
And worse, tomorrow we're having a meeting with the parents regarding the exam results [which by the way can't be proud of at all!]
I can't see the importance of having this kind of meeting when most of the parents don't really care whether their children come to school or not.
Shheeeeesh!! Blame my BAD time management for this!
I tend to do work at the last minutes or close to deadlines.
[my 'motto': "I WORK BEST UNDER PRESSURE"]
Yeah, righttt!! Hehehehehe..

And there's this problem with my house mate.
I think she's just been swindled by her boyfriend [who used to be our school Pak Guard -not that it matters.. LOL]
Actually I'm in a dilemma right now.. whether to tell her family or just keep my mouth shut.
Maybe I should mind my own 'unfinished' business, but then I can't stop thinking how big of a fool she has been since they became a couple.

Let's analyze her situation:

She broke her engagement with her fiance (read here) a few months back and almost right after that the Pak Guard [PG] came into the picture.
He 'took her heart away' lah konon-kononnya.
I don't have any problem with what he does for a living, so long as it's HALAL, then again his stories or shall I say 'tales' to my house mate Y were so stupidly unbelievable.
What sort of stories? Here are some, have fun laughing your heads off!
Mind you guys these were what he told Y on their first so-called date:-

-PG told Y that when he was working in KL he used to drive [by that he meant used to have..] all sorts of cars Perdana V6 lah, Honda lah.. I wonder why he only drives a second hand Wira when he decided to come back to his kampung.

-PG said he used to be an assistant architect. [Wow!] And he was the one who designed the PM's house [wow! wow! and WOWW!!]. Upon hearing this from Y, I started to feel very uneasy with this PG guy. That is sooooooo stupid, don't you think? If you're that successful then why on earth did you have to come work in a kampung as a guard? You can do that in KL lah if you want! Aiyoo!

-PG also said he had 20-30k in his savings and that he needn't any loan to make a house for his parents. I don't see any relevance in telling anyone how much [or little] I have in my savings. And during the first meeting some more! That's just simply ridiculous.

-PG received an offer from PDRM,but he was not interested to join the force. Then, he got an offer from MAS [to receive trainings for pilot] but he declined. He said he's not so keen in working under somebody's order. According to him, he's his own boss. Yikes! What sort of a lie was that? If you 'really' got an offer from PDRM/MAS, you must've applied for the post lah kan in the first place? They aren't that stupid to offer you a job just like that! And Y actually believed this!

+ + +

There are more, but I don't want to waste more of my time just to write about PG.
The most important thing is what Y is doing now.

SHE'S APPLYING FOR A LOAN TO BUY SOME PROPERTY FOR 100K!!

And so much to my own 'bewilderment', she's going to share the property with PG.
Ha ha ha. That's just plain idiot, kan?
And she said PG's going to apply a loan for the other half of it [which I doubt it'll be granted because he's jobless now. yupp, he quit his job as our school guard.]
I pity Y, because it's only her second year working yet she's already thinking of getting such a huge loan. And not for herself, even..
That PG guys is obviously a CON, right?
And either Y is totally in love to believe such words from PG or she's stupid, period.
Another take is that perhaps she's been bewitched by a 'love/money' spell?

Please, tell me what you think.
Or better still, tell me what do you think I have to do to help Y.

Oh, and did I tell you last week she didn't come home for a night and she told me she had a stomach ache and had to stay at her parents'?
It's no surprise to know that I've been conned too, by Miss Y herself.
It turns out she was in Kuala Terengganu with PG until very late that night and was afraid to go home at that hour.
So they took turns to sleep in her car.
La la la... can you believe that???

Love is after all,.... BLIND!

Wassalam~

Reminiscing~

Assalamualaykum.

It's official.
It's finally been decided.
(read here.)
The place where I grew up and met friends who I can call family will finally be relocated to another location.
When I read that in Asni's blog yesterday, I felt as if I was being stabbed straight into my heart.
Some may think that I over-reacted given the fact that I somehow already knew this was coming sooner or later, but when it's officially announced, I almost cried.

TKC is not only a school for me [and each of us TKCians], but it's also a place where we learn all about life, love and most importantly friendship.
As I always say, the five years spent in Bukit Merbah was the best years in my life and nothing can take away the fond memories [and also bitter ones] I had there.
The college spirit may always be with us no matter we go, but it's not the same.
I just can't imagine if we're having our 10th year gathering [for example] at another place, not in our old school compound.
The feeling must be totally different.


But who am I to say what to do and vice versa.
I'm just a plain TKC Old Girl with our college spirit that'll stay with me till the day I die.
I'll be damned if they make our old school compound as another school.
[Like what happened to SAS and SDAR..]
Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu...
Then again., this is just another rambling from me..~

Wassalam.

♥ is ♥

Assalamualaykum.

♥ ♥ ♥

Ada Cinta - Acha Septriasa & Irwansyah

Ucapkanlah kasih..
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih..
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada
Dalam rinai hujan, dalam terang bulan
Juga dalam sedu sedan

Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta
Padahal yang terasa
Dalam rindu dendam, hening malam
Cinta.. terasa ada…

♥ ♥ ♥

Am feeling a bit down today because I've been listening to this song non-stop since morning.
To tell you the truth, I'm not a big fan of the movie "My Heart" starring Acha Septriasa and Irwansyah.
[It was a complete turn off pour moi, I didn't even try to watch the film.]
I like the OST, but not the way they acted in that movie.
Irwansyah for me, seemed so "lembik" in it. [pardon me if that's harsh for any Irwan's fans out there].

But the upcoming movie "Love is Cinta" is very intriguing for me.
Then again it's not because of the two lovebirds [Acha+Irwan] but I'm looking forward to watch the co-actor Raffi Ahmad in action.
Seeing the film's TMO [the making of] and watching Raffi's character, touched my heart.
The theme of this new movie is for me a bit more interesting than the previous "My Heart".
Not only it's a tiny little bit more serious, but the theme is so close to me.
Well, it's a story about an unrequited love.
How familiar is that to yours truly?
That's like a synonym to me!
:((

Wassalam~

p/s: Achik sila beli speaker or bergegas ke CC sekarang. LOL

New!

Assalamualaykum.

A fresh new look today from me as I promised, Puan Asni.
Hehehehehe.. so how do you like my new layout?
Do leave some opinions,okay?
And that goes to everyone reading this.

Actually there are still some errors that I need to amend.
(am referring to posts: "ANGRY!!" and "SENSEI!")
I still can't figure out why the background turned out to be like that.
Just close one eye-lah will you?
Hehehehe..

Credits to Miss Shambijoux for the "FTP LESSONS" via phone yesterday.
It helped me a lot!!
Hence this new layout came about with much less troubles.
:)

Oh, will post again later.
As Dr So'od likes to put it, today's entry is 'pendek ketot'..
LOL

Wassalam.