Showing posts with label negative. Show all posts
Showing posts with label negative. Show all posts

Monday, January 14, 2008

Rumblings~


Assalamualaykum.
These days, I just don't feel like writing.. or blogging to be exact.
I rarely visit my friends' blogs too.
And even if I did, no notes were left in the comment box for them to read.. or to know that I 'stopped by' their blog.
This laziness.. has been part of myself lately.
Sigh~
What's with a new year, may I ask?
New resolutions? I don't have any. So does that make me a loser?
I don't 'torture' myself thinking of what I wanna achieve this particular year.
Failure to complete them, will eventually makes me feel like I'm a loser.
IMHO, things should be done gradually.. one thing at a time.
In my own pace.
And why am I sounding so negative, you ask?
Well, today I had to say good-bye to a very, very good collegue.
A teacher..a mentor..an advisor. He's phenomenal.
Moving to a new place, leaving us all behind.. well, that really changed my mood today.
Sigh~

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

freedom

Assalamualaykum.

These days, I mourn over the un-democratic situations in our country.
I feel like the freedom to state one's own opinion is blocked.
Citizens are being treated like rubbish.. with no mercy at all.
I wonder if this is the peaceful Malaysia we always boast about?

True, demonstration or street rally is not our 'budaya'.
Starting from the Batu Buruk incident to the BERSIH rally and the latest was the Hindraf demo.
But IMHO, the demonstrations would never turned out to be ugly if our police force did their part well.
After all they didn't mean any harm to the public at all.
If they weren't provoked with water canon and poison gas, I doubt they would act violently.
This is rather a case of something that was suposed to be so simple and easy to handle turned the other way around.

Truth be told, this entry is not my way of letting out my wrath against the government.
But watching the recent events,just made my heart ache.
There are definitely better ways to handle stuff but we preferred the hard and harsher way.
THE WORLD IS WATCHING US..
Sadly the 'friendly Malaysians' remains a tale now.

Media blackout?
Now that's another story to be wrapped up next time.

In the mean time I just need to ease my sadness upon what's happening in our beloved country.
And by that I mean another fruit pudding coming right up into my fridge!
Hehehehehehehe..

Wassalam.

Friday, September 7, 2007

3MlmTnp( * )

Assalamualaykum..

I've never realized the significance of this song until today.
As always, I cherised the lyric of any songs best while I'm driving.
And for this song it's no difference..
Man, what's wrong with me??
Wasn't I supposed to be ignorant?

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Fiq (Mentor) - 3 Malam Tanpa Bintang.

Kasih.. maafkan diriku
Banyak dosaku padamu
Tidak terhitung jari jemari daku
Tak dapat dibilang bagai bintang beribu
Sukarnya diriku menebus kekhilafan yang lalu

Kasih.. engkau tak bersalah
Hanya hatiku yang buta
Tulus dan ikhlas kau korban jiwa raga
Dan tanpa belas ku buat kau kecewa
Ku tahu dirimu sukar melupakan segalanya

Tiga malam tanpa bintang
Dan diriku dihimpit penyesalan
Arah tuju kian fanaKerna hilangnya manira
Bagaikan siang diselubung gerhana

Kembalikan senda tawa
Pulangkanlah manis disenyum manja
Ku pahatkan keinsafan
Dan patrikan kesetiaan
Sehingga nadi menafikan nyawa
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Pa'chik (and everybody)..
Please bear with me for a few more days ok? ;p
I think this won't take long..
The personality 'transition' is not that easy as it seems to be.

Psssst.. Shambie darling..
Do excuse our extremely short date last night.
So short you only managed to finish only a slice of that finger-licking papperoni dip-licious pizza.
[some more with Nuqman around and the waiter who acted like he's chasing us away..LOL!!]

Wassalam~

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Decision.

Assalamualaykum.

To me, I'm a terrible decision maker.
I do things when time is almost running out.
People closest to me [especially my colleagues + boss], are well aware of this bad quality of mine.

On a different note, I'm getting better at making things worse these days.
But heck, I'm a different person now [I wish!!!]..
I am selfish, cruel and couldn't care less of what's happening around me.
As long as I'm happy, I'm happy.. [on the outside at least.]
Come to think of it, that's just another bad quality I've acquired, kan?
LOL

Getting back to the topic, I'm beginning to consider closing down this account @blogspot.
As much as I love my identity "fizhasan", I'm suffocating now.
I can't breathe here anymore.. and my mind is getting numb each day.
Perhaps I shouldn't reopen after the short hiatus status last time.

But still, I looooooooooove writing.
This passion I have for writing, no one can ever take it away.
Hence this blog is the place for me to let out my feelings.
[This is the downside of being single+available, ok people? Should I have a boyfriend, he might end up dead deaf by now listening to me whining.. huhu~]

However, it is still in my consideration.
I might close down this 'premise', but InsyaAllah I won't disappear in this blogosphere.
It is afterall, THE place where I got to know loads and loads of unforgettable, extraordinary and special people like:

KAK RUBY, ABE ID,KAK PB,PA'CHIK,DR SO'OD,ACHIK
and the list goes on..

They have all touched my heart in their own special kind of ways.
Up to a point that I felt like I've known them for ages.

Yes, I am terribly confused now.
But no, I don't think I felt a pang of guilt anymore.
I've just turned into the virtual version of "Cruella De Vil".

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Uncomfortable.

Assalamualaykum..



Sometimes I don't really understand LIFE.
Why should it be so difficult to understand?
Why must it bring sadness and confusion to me when all I need is PEACE?
Why, oh why??

These past few weeks I've been trying hard to be joyous.
To show my happy face to everyone..
I fought with my own emotion..trying to forget the sadness.
And the GUILT.

But in the end what good does that give me?
None. Nothing at all.

Perhaps I should be CRUEL this time around.
I should stop caring..
Because by showing that I care, I only make matters worse.
So ironic, don't you think?

Saturday, June 23, 2007

ANGRY!!!

Assalamualaykum.
Before I go on with today's entry, let me tell you one thing.
Yes, I'm so angry today.
I'm really furious after reading Pa'chik's blog.
No, please don't get me wrong.
I'm not mad at him, I'm furious after reading the article he pasted in his latest entry.

How low can we go as a Malaysian Muslim?
Just to prove that we are living in a so-called developed country, to prove that we are open-minded, to show the world that we are capable of doing everything.. we have to put Islam away?
MasyaAllah.. I think having one 'Lina Joy' is enough.

Read this:

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Bartenders Whip Up A Storm At Contest

Third placed: Erik whipping up his Belveryna and Eredevleb Framboise Tea Martini cocktails.
THEY shook, stirred and dazzled the crowd as they whipped up two cocktails – a martini and a long drink – within a few minutes at the Belvedere Bartender Competition.

The competition hosted by Belvedere Vodka at Frangipani bar offered an opportunity to celebrate the skill, creativity and artistry of Malaysia’s bartenders as well as Belvedere Vodka’s belief in the art of mixing the perfect cocktail.

Ten bartenders from various five-star hotels and night outlets competed for the title of Belvedere Bartender of the Year 2007 (Malaysia).

The winner will participate in the Regional Bartender Event in Hong Kong with an opportunity to go on to the Belvedere International Bartender Competition in London.

“Each cocktail must feature one of the three types of Belvedere Vodka – Belvedere Pure, Belvedere Cytrus or Belvedere Pomarancza,” said Riche Monde Malaysia Belvedere Vodka brand manager Jeff Chong, whose company distributes the brand in Malaysia.

“Judging will be based on taste, outlook (bartender’s presentation), presentation of drink, aroma and the name of the cocktail.”

Test of skill and creativity: Adzhar straining his cocktail mixture before pouring it into a martini glass.
The panel of judges comprised Moet Hennessy Spirits marketing manager Andrew Khan, Belvedere Vodka regional brand ambassador Sam Jeveons and Klue magazine managing director John Lim.

“We’re also hosting a cocktail party, which will offer guests and Belvedere lovers the chance to have fun and enjoy some drinks,” Chong said.

Riche Monde Malaysia’s corporate clients, media members and celebrities like Marion Caunter, Wong Sze Zen, Stephanie Chai and Will Quah attended the invitation-only event.

Daphne Iking hosted the event while Camelia entertained guests with a few songs.

“Belvedere literally means 'beautiful to see.' A fitting name for such an alluring vodka,” Iking said during the opening of the event.

Delectable: Alvey sampling Adzhar’s Smooth while Iking looks on.
“The moniker is in fact inspired by the historical Belvedere Palace in Warsaw, former home to Polish royalties and presidents. Continuing a Polish tradition reaching back 600 years, Belvedere Vodka is handcrafted in small batches using centuries-old techniques to ensure the highest quality, “ she said.

Mohd Adzhar Ahmad, who has been bartending at Qba in The Westin Kuala Lumpur for two years, was declared the competition’s winner with his long drink named Pomarancza Ozie and martini called Smooth.

Fellow Qba bartender Rizal Junior Johari won second place with his Capito long drink and June’s martini.

Mohd Erik Fiza Zulkifle from The Loft KL was third with his Belveryna and Eredevleb Framboise Tea Martini cocktails.

Vodka fan James Coathup tried Erik’s Belveryna and described it as “fresh, fruity and delicious”.

“This drink is something I’d actually buy. I usually go for drinks like vodka cranberry and vodka lime soda when I’m out for drinks with friends,” the Australian said.

Channel [V] VJ Alvin Pulga, better known as Alvey sampled Adzhar’s Smooth and declared that its smooth taste lived up to its name.

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"BRAVO"!!!!!
The 1st,2nd and 3rd place are all Muslim.
Good job, guys. 'Well done!'

Astaghfirullahalazim.
Don't they have better things to do?
Is getting a job that hard they had to settle being a bartender instead?
Come on, is not like you're making 'teh tarik' or what ok?
MasyaAllah.. MasyaAllah..

If any of you readers think that they aren't doing any wrong, or perhaps you're trying to be positive, thinking that they might just mingle with vodka,beer,wine et cetera without consuming it, [which I doubt because how would they know the mixture tastes good if they don't try it first??] ,well I hope this hadith will make you think twice.
Credits to pa'chik for putting this up, so that I can share with all of you who are reading.

Diriwayatkan oleh Ibnu Tarmizi dan Ibnu Majah;
“Rasulullah s.a.w. melaknat tentang arak, sepuluh golongan: (1) yang memerasnya, (2) yang minta diperaskannya, (3) yang meminumnya, (4) yang membawanya, (5) yang minta dihantarinya, (6) yang menuangkannya, (7) yang menjualnya, (8) yang makan harganya, (9) yang membelinya, (10) yang minta dibelikannya.”

I have yet to give my opinion on a local female actor who decided to shaved her head bald and now this??
MasyaAllah, it's neverending.
People seem proud to show they did something that is obviously wrong in Islam.
I really can't understand this.

I'm sorry this entry sounds so negative , but this I had to do.
I'm tired of reading about what these kind of people did to make others [non-Muslim] even more confused about Islam.
I may not be the best or the most suitable person to write about this, as I know I'm not a perfect Muslimah too, but Subhananallah..
This is just way too much.
I might just punch them in the face if I ever see them on the street.
LOL.

Oh well, for the record, shaving your head bald [for woman] is HARAM no matter how you put it [unless it's for medical purposes-lah..].
What does art got to do with hukum Islam anyway?
It doesn't make it HALAL, even though that's what you do for a living.
[And daddy showing his support by shaving his head too?? Come on!!!!!]
The same goes for men who wear earrings or chain/choker.
That's HARAM too. Period.

Wassalam.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Sorry, YOU'RE SO STUPID!!!!

Assalamualaykum..
First of all, I'd like to apologize for the unmannerly title.
But after reading yesterday's newspaper I was furious.
I was so angry, and at the same time felt so annoyed.
Read this:



Mana perginya tudung Salima?

Oleh: NIEZAM ABDULLAH








Apa sudah jadi dengan bekas pelajar Akademi Fantasia Keempat (AF4) iaitu Salima? Sebelum ini dia begitu mempertahankan pendirian untuk tidak membuka tudung apatah lagi mendedahkan rambutnya kepada umum.

Sehinggakan gadis berusia 19 tahun ini turut kesal apabila pihak Astro menerusi program Fail Sulit AF telah menyiarkan gambar-gambarnya yang tidak bertudung ketika terlantar sakit selepas terlibat dengan kemalangan jalan raya di Temerloh tidak lama dulu.

Kata Salima ketika itu, dia kesal apabila pihak Astro menayangkan gambar-gambar tersebut sedangkan dia telah melarangnya sejak awal lagi.

Jika dilihat daripada kenyataan itu, ia memperlihatkan Salima begitu mempertahankan soal rambut atau auratnya.

Beliau menganggap perkara itu adalah maruah diri dan penyiaran beberapa keping gambar di dalam program berkenaan ternyata mencabuli haknya sebagai gadis bertudung.

Bagaimanapun semasa pementasan teater Rangkas Putera di Auditorium Muzium Sultan Alam Shah, Shah Alam pada 13 hingga 15 April lalu, ramai yang terkejut melihat penampilan terbaru Salima.

Gadis itu muncul dalam teater purbawara arahan Azmi Zainun tanpa memakai tudung dengan memegang watak Permaisuri Tanjung Karang.

Teater itu mengisahkan seorang bayi yang ditemui di sebuah rumpun buluh oleh sebuah keluarga diraja lalu dibesarkan dalam kehidupan istana.

Bayi yang diberi nama Rangkas Putera itu tidak membesar sebagaimana diharapkan sebaliknya telah mengganas dan merampas takhta keluarga angkatnya.

Tidak dinafikan persembahan Salima bersama Ifa Raziah dan Adlin (AF2) itu benar-benar memperlihatkan bakatnya dalam bidang teater. Tetapi persoalannya di manakah tudung Salima? Adakah kerana ingin memenuhi impian berlakon teater tersebut memaksa dia mencabuli pendiriannya selama ini?

Menurut Salima, dia sendiri sudah mengagak kemunculannya itu akan menimbulkan kontroversi terutamanya soal pemakaian tudung. Gadis bernama Nor Salima Habibi ini sebenarnya sudah bersiap sedia terhadap jawapan bagi persoalan yang bakal dibangkitkan itu.

Katanya, apa yang dilihat oleh penonton itu sekadar rambut palsu. Pada dasarnya Salima tidak menanggalkan tudung jauh sekali dengan sesuka hati ingin mempertontonkan rambutnya kepada umum.

Sebaliknya sebelum rambut palsu disarungkan di kepalanya, dia terlebih dahulu memakai anak tudung yang menutupi keseluruhan rambut asalnya.

Dia juga menganggap, tindakannya itu tidak salah dan bersedia berhadapan dengan apa juga persoalan yang akan dibangkitkan selepas ini.

‘‘Saya berpendapat dengan cara itu saya masih lagi tidak mendedahkan rambut saya kepada orang ramai. Saya masih menutup aurat kerana rambut asal ditutupi dengan anak tudung sebelum saya dipakaikan dengan rambut palsu,’’ katanya. [soooooooo stupid!!!]

Menurut Salima, dia mendapat tawaran berlakon teater tersebut selepas diajak oleh Ifa Raziah beberapa bulan lalu.

Secara kebetulan Salima diminta untuk menggantikan watak orang lain yang tidak dapat turut serta di dalam pementasan berkenaan.

Bagaimanapun selepas perbincangan dengan pengarah teater itu, Salima bersetuju untuk memakai anak tudung bagi menghormati skrip teater tersebut.

Benar kata Salima itu tetapi cara tersebut hanya menutupi rambut sebaliknya bagaimana dengan bahagian telinga, leher dan dada yang masih terdedah?

Ini kerana imej beliau selama ini menutupi keseluruhan bahagian tersebut. Bagaimanapun Salima tetap mempertahankan pendiriannya untuk muncul di pentas teater itu.

‘‘Saya anggap tindakan saya itu tidak salah kerana masih menutupi rambut asal,’’ katanya. Gadis ini juga menolak langkah yang diambilnya itu semata-mata untuk meraih publisiti murahan. [yeahh, right...]

Sebaliknya dia menganggap kemunculannya itu adalah untuk mempelbagaikan bakatnya dalam bidang seni.

‘‘Saya tak mahu berterusan menjadi penyanyi sebaliknya saya ingin mencuba bidang lain khususnya teater kerana minat saya dalam bidang tersebut bermula sejak di bangku sekolah lagi,’’ jelasnya.

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Masya Allah... after reading this, tak putus² beristighfar.
How could she say that?
From what I understand, in her own point of view, using wig is OKAY.
It means you're covering your hair, the same like wearing a hijab/tudung.
Astaghfirullahalazim..

If that's the case, she should've worn the wig since the first day she decided to cover her hair.
That would've been easier and will definitely cause less confusion for those who decided to do the same.
Some people could've misunderstood the meaning of 'aurat' in Islam.
Masya Allah....
For me, if you want to wear a hijab, wear it nicely and with manner.

This is another example.
An example of those who think that tudung is simply a 'fashion'.
Astaghfirullahalazim...



Well, before I go off, again I want to apologize if this entry causes uneasiness to anyone.
I know this kind of 'sensitive issue' should be referred to an expert.
But comparing wigs to hijab is just too much for me.
It can simply means those 'Drag Queens' are wearing tudung lah all this while.
Sigh~

My goodness, Salima.. you're so STUPID!
Think before you say something.
Or better yet, don't think at all and just shut up.

Wassalam~

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

-ve vibes

Assalamualaykum..

This morning I woke up late..
(6.30 a.m. from the usual 5.30..]
And I think everything doesn't fall to its rightful places today.
In short, I'm not in a very good mood-lah.

The first class for today was English Year 6.
As always, the students 'successfully' put my patience up to its maximum level.
Thank goodness I did not punish them like yesterday.
[Jemur under the very-very hot sun..]

I still haven't got the time to post my application form.
Supposedly, I should've sent it on Monday but I went home late.
And yesterday I went back too early, the post office was closed for lunch break.
I don't know about today, maybe I'll ask my boss for permission to go out during recess.
[The thought of talking to her sickens me..]

We'll be having a meeting today.
FYI, that's my least favourite time in school.
Why? Shall I tell you?
I can't stand being in the same room with my boss for more than 1 hour.
Work with her and you'll know how I feel.

And if I attend today's meeting, that means my Year 4 students will have to postpone their extra class again.
Gosh, I still have 3 classes with them that I've to 'ganti'..
All due to the courses I had to attend.
Arghhhhhhhhh... I hate this!

Sorry people..
Actually I wanted to post something else, but when my fingers hit the keyboard, they just started to type words that came out right from my heart and mind today.
Please excuse all the negative elements this post brings.
Maybe 'that time of the month' is around the corner.

Paham² je la ekk..

Wassalam.